katee

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Wed, 10 Apr 2002 16:39:12 GMT

ok, i must update this because jessi says it will be lost...forever!!!!!!!!! ok, so here's what's new: i have a broken toe and romeo and juliet rehearsals are evil with it. here is how i broke it. it's a very romantic story with lots of nudity. be prepared. i was in ballet class doing barre exercises. my friend beth was in front of me and we were doing battement en cloche (kick of the clock) exercises. i kicked to the front, beth kicked to the back, two worlds collided......to sum it up, i broke my toe on another person's foot. what a geek.

also, i have a new boyfriend. actually, i started seeing him a month and a half ago. his name is brian stewart. people call him stew. he is humorous. he has mutton chops and is a major geek. finally, a computer geek with facial hair!

talk to you later, all of you in computer world........

funny pun i made up: (which no one i know appreciates)

"but i digest..."

aka but i digress.......get it? ok, whatever.

Tue, 20 Nov 2001 00:45:22 GMT

ok, i was cast in romeo and juliet as a capulet and in a preshow comedy spoof about what would happen if romeo and juliet had lived, i play their daughter. my roommate nicki yelled at me for throwing a pop can away instead of recycling it. i am sick because of all the new medicines i was put on for the freak out session i had last week. i'm on celexa again and an antibiotic for some weird flu i got. things are actually pretty good, if i can get myself in order.......

Sun, 11 Nov 2001 13:57:44 GMT

did well at top girls callbacks. now, on to romeo and juliet!!! byeee!

Fri, 09 Nov 2001 20:40:08 GMT

got a callback for romeo and juliet as juliet!! got a callback for top girls as my favorite character angie!!! gotta go to class bye!

Sun, 04 Nov 2001 19:39:57 GMT

i am 34% goth! "Goth ny night, normal by day. Deep in your heart you know you're evil, but not on the company's time. You do need to eat. " hehehe. well shucks folks!

i am working now!

Sun, 04 Nov 2001 19:33:38 GMT

wow, is this ever nice! i've had the apartment to myself the whole weekend long. i'm not looking forward to when my roommates come home. i found out i got two different roles in the scenes directed by the students here. one is called 'psycho beach party' where i play a 16-year old scizophrenic who wants to learn to surf. one of her personalities is shy and sweet. the other two personalities are a dominatrix and a black girl who works at safeway. it is a play , but it was also made into an independent film. the film version has xander from buffy in it! it's a campy movie making fun of horror movies, and very amusing. i recommend it to everyone! youcan rent it from your local blockbuster video store! the other play is called 'independence'. i will be playing a 19-year old girl who is the youngest of three sisters. she evidently sits around talking with her oldest lesbian sister about all of her sexual exploits. hehehe. yay. i think there has been some type-casting going on here! poo. no, i'm very very excited! i will be able to show my boldness and lots of dynamics through these roles. the people who decide if we qualify will be watching these, too. i'm gonna get in this program if it kills me!!!!! so, that's all that's new except that i have two more auditions this week. bojan is still cute! hehehe. he's an absolutely amazing person. i want everyone to meet him! byeeee!

LATEX SUCKS!!!!!!!!!

Tue, 23 Oct 2001 22:19:41 GMT

no, i have no previous experience with the condoms. i have just gotten back from my makeup class. i spent about an hour trying to rip latex off of my face. believe me, it sucks. i have to prepare for three monologues. i am not looking forward to that whole deally. the experience will be valuable! i don't have a whole lot to say except for the fact that i haven't eaten hardly anything today. what should i have??? hmmm... don't even suggest ramen noodles. EEW!

Mon, 22 Oct 2001 22:55:48 GMT

ok, it's been a while......once again. i've been really busy with schoolwork and a new boyfriend (bojan). but i've been having a general good time! today i'm in a good mood. i stayed up late studying for a test and working on a paper, but there are just some days when i feel on top of the world. i guess today is one of those.

one thing that bothers me is that when two people are in love, their affection for one another is usually looked down upon. i don't mean having sex on park benches or anything, but if i want to give someone a kiss, it shouldn't be scoffed at. this past friday, i went to my school's production of cabaret. when i was coming back from the restroom during intermission i saw a couple in their late thirties, or early fourties standing in the hallway with their arms wrapped around each other kissing. there were people walking all around them but they were so totally in tune to each other. i thought it was beautiful. so, enjoy it when you see people in love. there is enough hatred and violence out there for all of us. let's appreciate the lovin'!!!

today's word is: omboodsman

Wed, 03 Oct 2001 00:07:02 GMT

i went out with bojan and now i'm seeing him. yay! i got an email from mark today, too. it is really weird. i'm actually pretty happy to hear from him. well, i'm going over to bojan's now. later!

i feel better

Tue, 02 Oct 2001 00:17:43 GMT

damon and i broke up last night. we're better friends, anyway. i've learned a lot of things. hmm. three boyfriends, six months. wow. i'm a whore. damon and i are really close friends, and things won't be as hard on me-he can be kind of mean sometimes. oh well. tonight, i'm going to get coffee with my friend bojan (he's bosnian) and i have a crush on him, and he knows about it. what's more is the fact that he asked me out. i talked to another guy i met through damon for over an hour on the phone today. remember that party i went to where i met that guy named dave? i did something with him last week and i am going to call him tomorrow. that should be fun. he's got really good taste in music-and he can sing! so, overall, things are going well on that homefront that is known as katee's social life. hehehe. i think that my meds might be working, too! i am feeling so much better! things just seem more exciting to me or something! i am feeling more like the happy me that i can sometimes be. my classes are going very well also. i love them to death!!! i AM bfa material and i know i can handle this major. i am going to continue to prove myself in every way i can. i am getting involved in stuff, too. i am joining a group of students who perform improv and melodramatic soap operas. i am excited. i guess that maybe life was waiting for me--but the thing is that you have to have the balls to go out and get it. you know what??? I DO!!!!!!!!

today's word is: in flagrante delicto

Mon, 24 Sep 2001 03:53:50 GMT

my rockstar boyfriend is kurt cobain!!! yay!!!

it's been awhile......

Sun, 23 Sep 2001 19:21:59 GMT

yeah, it's been a long time since i updated this do-dad. i've just been really busy with college life. i'm having a good time. i'm starting to make a lot of friends. most of the theatre people here are really great. we have a good time. i have a boyfriend, now too. his name is damon. we've been dating since the first week of school. i know that it sounds really whore-ish of me, but we really hit it off. things are going well, i think. he's the first guy i've ever dated that i can be myself and talk about things with. we have disagreements and everything-something i've never allowed myself to get into with other guys i've dated. but, i disappointed him last night. i'm on anti-depressants and i'm not supposed to drink while using them. we went to a theatre party last night. i was really having a difficult time relaxing so at about two o'clock i started to drink. i have a really low tolerance! i had only one but i drank it really quickly on an empty stomach. i was really goofy. damon was disappointed in me, but he says that that is too harsh of a word to use. he drove my car home and stayed with me for a while while i was goofy. he cares about me, but i feel bad that i was so weird. he was going to sit by my bed until i fell asleep, holding my hand. he is sweet, but it's kind of sad that he was doing that. i told him he could just go home. it's not like i was sick or anything, just a little goofy. i woke up with a bit of a headache, but other than that i feel fine. i don't think i want to do that again. i do have better morals than that, and i know people who have had drinking problems. i feel almost like i've betrayed them. other than that thing, things are going very well here. i'm starting to fit in. i love the independence. i'm doing better than i have in a long time and i believe that i owe it to that factor.

i still have to do a lot of smelly homework and a lot of smelly laundry today. i can't figure out which smells worse. so, i'm going to get cracking before i get too tired to do it. love and miss you all.

college

Wed, 05 Sep 2001 12:19:05 GMT

i'm goin' to college! my classes started yesterday. i have a comp class this a.m. ick. then i have a voice and movement class and an elements of the theatre class. yesterday i had an intro to college learning class and a makeup class. very cool. whoopie!! now my roommate nicki and i have to leave to meet krista and joy. krista is in our comp class too. more updates later........

today's word is: non-existant because i don't have a dictionary and i am not intelligent enough to come up with a word on my own.

Thu, 30 Aug 2001 22:44:37 GMT

i haven't updated for a long time because my computer has been pissy lately. i'm finally able to use my dad's slow computer in the basement and it doesn't work quite as well.

i've not been doing very well lately. usually when i get depressed, anxious, stressed out, my anger manifests itself through my physical well-being. today i had a stomach ache and an ear ache. i went ot the doctor and i definitely have a bad ear infection. i can't even hear out of it. i haven't had one of these since i was a little kid. i am beginning to think it is my way of saying how much (right now) i'd like ot revert back to a time when i was a kid and mom and dad took care of me.

dad came home today during lunchtime ( i'm not really sure why he did), but he told me he would rockabye me just like he did when i was little. it may sound stupid to some people, but that is somehting i am going to really miss from living at home. my dad and i developed a close bond when i was very young. we are both light sleepers and until i was probably five, i couldn't sleep through the night. dad would rockabye me to make me sleep. we both started to cry-something that isn't strange for me to do, but it is only the second time i've ever seen my dad cry. the other time was when his mom died. so, this is a really weird time for me and the rest of my family.

this is probably the last time before i move up to duluth that i will be able to update this dealy. i will try to update more often up there.

Tue, 21 Aug 2001 19:16:44 GMT

hey, guess what i've discovered! if you put milk of magnesia on your face, it gets rid of oily skin! you let it dry and then wash it off. it sounds kinda sick, but it works, so who cares!!! yay!

i went to duluth yesterday and saw my dorm. it's fairly large and has quite a bit of closet space! don't have much else to say, so i hope everyone has a good day!

today's word is: padrone

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Wed, 15 Aug 2001 02:02:13 GMT

i don't really know what to say. just some stuff that's been going on. it won't make sense, but that's ok. working at the dry cleaners. fighting with dad. he hit me. didn't hurt. saw tom s. today. he was horny. can't really feel much of anything. have been almost completely blank for some time. confused. need to get away from here. parents don't want any of my stuff around the house. have always been like that. can't make it look like i live here, too. am going to box up everything in my room before i leave. colin gave me the key to work today. we talked for a little while. missed him. also miss pat. need to call him--maybe tomorrow. called old friend jill. was very nice to talk to her. it's been 2.5 years! missed her too. laundry sucks.

today's word is: theurgist

bitchier and better than before

Fri, 10 Aug 2001 05:51:01 GMT

i went to john's house tonight. i told him about mark because he got to asking me why i told him i wouldn't believe him when he told me i was 'beautiful'. it was quite a mess. i told him he was the 2nd person to ever say that to me and that i just didn't believe things like that...can we please change the subject. he asked who the other person was. so, he asked for it, i told him. then i got uncomfortable and upset and left. i don't care anymore.

yesterday i went to the walker art center. my shrink gave me directions and everything so i could do something by myself, for myself and not have to answer to anyone. i have also been deprived of cultural types of things...so that's what my mystery day was about.

i had been thinking for some time that 'no one has ever asked me what i want.' and although this is true, it's a very horrible thing to say. my new plan as a 'newly renovated bitch' is to get what i want--for the first time in my life i'm going to try to get out there and get things myself. screw everyone else.

Wed, 08 Aug 2001 04:32:19 GMT

i haven't written for a while. i've just been kinda busy with working at the dry cleaners and new romances. tomorrow i am going to do something for myself and i will be very excited to tell everyone about it on thursday.

Thu, 26 Jul 2001 20:57:09 GMT

yesterday was crappy. i felt like doo-doo because i was so worried about my roommates. now i feel a lot better. i think things will be ok. i just talked to one of them for a while. i'll just have to wait and see!

today, my friend anthony took me out to a japanese restaurant downtown called "sakura". it was so nummy! i'd never had japanese before! and then i talked to my roommate 'molly'. that's all i did...except miss a dental appointment my mother casually forgot to tell me about.

tonight i'm going ot the "marketfest" in white bear. tomorrow i might go garage-saling with my friends. woo hoo!

new job!

Wed, 25 Jul 2001 01:17:05 GMT

so, i work at the dry cleaners now. not glamorous, but not hard. one of my best friends colin works there so it should be...interesting. we will probably only work a couple of saturdays together. the manager is really funny. she's a real jerry springer case, but i have to admit i do like her! she's very nice and quite entertaining! so, my whole deal i was writing about is probably not as bad as i thought it was. oh well!
i found out who my roommates from my apartment are, and guess what, they are from the evil succubus dreaded town of forest lake!!! i can't get away from that place! i have other friends from forest lake, but they are in no way like that and as i've said before, they need to get away from it! these girls are, um...not the type of people i'm usually friends with. here's an introduction to them: they are best friends, their favorite band is 'nsync, they bought tons of purple stuff for the apartment(my least favorite color-not that i'm really complaining about it, but come on!), they only shop at american eagle and abercrombie and fitch. when i told my friend mike, who lives in forest lake who i was rooming with...he laughed. that's not a good sign, folks! i'm going to try real hard. they are probably very nice girls who just don't get out much! :)
if any friends of mine read this, i'm feeling on the upswing and that means i feel sociable too! i think this would be a fabulous time to do fabulous stuff with my fabulous friends. i love you all!

today's word is: thrasonical

TRAPPED!

Sun, 22 Jul 2001 06:50:42 GMT

i walked out of the party and was met by an extremely unfriendly cobweb which insisted upon clinging to face and not letting go. unfortunately, it reminded me of a situation i have gotten myself into recently. it's a very horrible thing to know exactly what you want, but not to be able to go about it in a way that will achieve results and not hurt yourself or another human being. sometimes, one needs to focus on their own life and try to make things better for themselves by being a little focused and a little selfish. there is nothing wrong with needing to be a little selfish every now and then.

it's a beautiful thing to be able to be myself. i love both the eve and the marilyn. most people are able to know the marilyn, but eve stays dormant most of the time. there is a certain person who brings out the good in both of these who is very special to me. he will never see this journal, but someday i will thank him in person. he has accepted me as both the eve and the marilyn. he has been my friend. he has shown me things in the world that no one else i know knows. he has been a mentor. he has been someone who makes me comfortable to be naked in front of. i can be me! and because of his support (unbeknownst to him), someday an integration of eve and marilyn may occur...

the many scents of katee

Thu, 19 Jul 2001 21:48:07 GMT

yesterday, emily told me i smelled like birthday candles. today she is convinced i smell like pink lemonade and plastic. i'm not really sure what that is supposed to mean, but i smile happily and appreciate the fact that i do not smell of manure or armpit. i've had some interesting times as of late. there have been some very interesting....ahem, exploits. i shall just leave it at that. :) my friend patrick is making another movie and i'm going to be involved in this one. i'm soooo excited! it's so cool because i can be myself with him. both the intellectual and the goofy. remember that dream i had where i was eve arden and marilyn monroe? i can be both eve and marilyn. i am pretty sure he knows i can be intelligent. it's fabulously different!!!
i got a job today at the clean 'n press in white bear lake! then i went to see my shrink in forest lake. i met jessi for luncheon. we ate bagged lunches in the park by the beach and talked for about 2.5 hours. it was a lover-ly afternoon!

today's word is: dishabille

you wouldn't believe the stuff you can find at a garage sale!

Fri, 13 Jul 2001 04:40:53 GMT

i've been away for quite some time, once again. i had a fabulous time at eric's cabin! it was a lot of fun!

yesterday i got a letter from the u of m-duluth housing office telling me they didn't reserve a dorm for me---they reserved an apartment!!! i will be living in a 2-bedroom, 1-bath apartment equipped with a kitchen, living room and dining room in a couple of months! of course, i will also be sharing it with 3 other girls. i was so excited today that i went garage-saling! i got 5 cups, 3 bowls, a pyrex baking pan, a small metal baking pan, a spatuala, a wooden spatuala, a wooden spoon, and a cutting board. i'm such a dork....i had so much fun! i'm going again soon with some of my friends, i hope! there's really nothing else new, well, maybe there is...but i need to keep an air of mystery surrounding me.........(hehehe).

Fri, 06 Jul 2001 18:35:19 GMT

i forgot to write last time...
so, yeah, i've been reading a bette davis biography. she really reminds me of myself!!! she was a total bitch! but, usually it was because she was so insecure and nervous. this is very strange because sometimes when i get very scared or nervous and don't think i can do something, i tell myself to think of bette davis and how she would go in and make everyone look at her and not care. kinda strange, huh?

Fri, 06 Jul 2001 18:29:37 GMT

i am going on vacation!!! (not really) just to my friend eric's cabin for the weekend. it's going to be a lot of fun....i hope! ok, i'm a majorly clean person--i take two showers a day (at least) and i might just die this weekend because i am not coming home 'til sunday. whoo-hoo! actually, i'm going to swim lots. i guess about 10 of my friends from high school are going up there.

and now...my fourth of july, brought to you by katee....

john picked me up around quarter to five and we drove to the state capital to meet our friends on the steps. we walked around the taste of minnesota for a while and i stole an american flag--hey! it's the american way! there were about 15 of us there! around 9 o'clock we got separated from half of them--they went to use the biffies. some went home (b4 the fireworks--what idiots!) and john, eric, nick, marino and i went to use up the rest of our tickets for food. john and i stood in line for a half hour getting onion blossoms and spud curls and we lost everyone else to the cheese curds and pickle on a stick line. we couldn't find them at the sign we said we'd meet them at, so we walked back to the capital building. they weren't there, either. so, carrying mucho amounts of hot greasy food, we walked to the parking ramp to watch the fireworks without them, but we found them there. yay! these were the coolest fireworks i've ever seen! they even had ones in the shape of hearts and smiley face! i swear i saw some triangles, too! it was awesome! it took us 20 minutes to get out of the parking ramp in john's car. we ended up turning on the radio and singing along to it. it was a lot of fun. then, we went to a guy named jake's house to set off fireworks on his pontoon. it was an overall great night. i didn't even mind the fact you could wring out the food grease from my clothes!

interesting piece of knowledge i came across: do you know why the academy award is called 'oscar'? when bette davis received the award for best actress in 1936 for her movie 'dangerous', she nicknamed it "oscar" after her husband's middle name (harmon [ham] oscar nelson) because the statuette's butt reminded her of her ham's! the press caught on and the name stuck!!!

today's word is: snollygoster-a shrewd unprincipled person